Author: Debra Weldon

This morning, as I read the second Office Reading (see the link below), I almost fell into tears.  What beautiful words! It made me ponder Mary, which lead to thoughts about giving birth to Christ.  This gave new meaning to Advent.  

In this reading, St. Bernard of Clairvaux writes about the annunciation when Gabriel tells Mary that she is to bear a son.  While this is not what he says, he basically takes on the role of Gabriel.  He is talking about that moment of time, which likely felt an eternity, between Gabriel’s words and Mary’s answer.  He talks about how the whole world waited with bated breath for her response – “be it done unto me according to your word.”  He talks about how Adam and his family in the “shadow of death” are tearful and begging her to say yes.  

As I pondered this, I fell into the role of a pregnant Mary, about to give birth. I have always hesitated to take on the role of Mary in my meditations, but this morning, I found myself there.  

No one at the time of Jesus understood what the Messiah was to be. The prophets didn’t give specifics.  People had hopes for many different types of saviors; anointed ones.  In the end, all they knew was promise of something new; they placed their hope in Yahweh, and trusted in him. 

Now, we find this young lady who is about to deliver on this hope.  She knows she has the king of Kings within her womb, the long awaited return of the Davidic kingship.  Instead of a palace, she finds herself in a barn or cave that housed the animals. She goes into labor and brings the Messiah into the world. She delivers God’s hope into the world. 

Jesus dwells within each Christian.  He is aching for us to give birth to him, to bring hope to others.  People are longing for this hope. They are waiting to be clothed in kindness. They are thirsting for words of salvation. They are imprisoned in sin and oppression, and looking for deliverance.  We, the body of Christ, are the answer to all the hopelessness and pain in the world. We are Mary, and it is our job to give birth to the King of Kings.  

Spend some time today pondering how you might give birth to the Messiah.  Spend some time with your insecurities, your fears, your weaknesses. Spend some time remembering that God calls only the weak.  Spend some time asking Jesus how you can deliver him to your neighbors. Make some resolutions for the new year about how you can play this forward. 

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In Him,

dw 

We are a week away from Jesus’ coming. Do you feel a sense of excitement as we relive this momentous occasion?   Let me see if I can help you build your sense of excitement.  

In the ancient Hebrew culture (and possibly even today), there was a belief that when something was said out loud, it brought the “thing” into existence. Thus, by saying aloud a praise to God when in a sad place, there was a true turn of mood. When they spoke of their history, especially the passover, there was a sense of being with their ancestors who lived those events. 

Thus, as we say Merry Christmas, as we talk about Jesus’ coming again (both in celebrating his birth and in acknowledging his second coming), we bring these events into our reality.  

I had to stop and ponder the second coming.  Did I believe that? As I meditated on this, I realized that there is a sense of Jesus’ coming in the Body of Christ.  I realized that my statement was correct.  I don’t know when Jesus’ full coming will happen. I’ve pondered about him coming through the body of Christ.  I think maybe more likely, it is an interim coming. The problem is – we don’t fully participate in our role in the body.  I wonder if we have lost our sense of being a part of the body, and what that means.  A thought for another day. 

Spend sometime today pondering the coming of Jesus (in both senses).  Say some prayers aloud asking him to make himself more fully present in your life.  Say some prayers of praise and bring some joy into your life. We were made to praise God, and in so doing you will experience a sense of joy; a sense of living out your purpose. Of course, you have to believe to feel the joy. May God bless you on your journey towards living out your faith more fully. 

In Him,

dw

Advent is like the bride’s maids waiting on the bride groom.  Do we have oil in our lamps? If not, this is the time to go and buy plenty.  How do we buy oil for our lamps? 

Oil is fuel. It provides light. It is prayer that provides us with both fuel and light. It brightens our awareness and our commitment to the wait. It brings us peace and wisdom.  It unites us to God, and that is our destiny – to be one with God as Jesus and the Father are one. 

Our sole joy consists in this objective, so why do we run from it? 

One, we are impatient and want the fullness of everything now. We are not good at waiting. We endeavor to pray more and to practice more Christ-like love in our lives, but we grow impatient. This is why Advent is a good time to practice waiting and being patient.  

Another reason we run is that it requires self-awareness. We spend so much energy hiding the things we do not like about ourselves or the things we fear others will not like.  God is already aware of these things. He already sees everything about us. We do not need to hide things from him. He wants to reveal to us our inner selves, and to help us love ourselves the way he loves us. This is a painful but beautiful process. God is truth. We cannot stand before God if we do not stand in the truth of who we are. We cannot see ourselves unless we grow in humility, and trust that God and others can love us as we are. We must become vulnerable, and trust that even when we feel rejected, we are loved.  

God wants to share his divinity with us.  Let us use this period of preparing for Jesus’ past coming and future coming with prayer and a desire to grow in intimacy with the one thing that can fill the void within us.  

Spend some time today reflecting on your oil. How do you pray? What can you do better during this season? What can you do to prepare the manger of your heart to receive the baby Jesus in a more open and contrite manner? How can you show him your gratitude for his having humbled himself; his act of adding a component of the created to his divine nature?  Take these thoughts to prayer, and then make an action plan for living an effective advent season. 

In Him,

dw 

I recently read an Old Testament scholar who talked about how bringing the ceilings of churches down low as a metaphor for our relationship with God. Historically, churches have had vaulted ceilings as a sign of God’s greatness.  Figuratively speaking, bringing down the ceilings has brought God down to us.  While having God as a friend is a good thing, losing his identity is not.  

Let me see if I can explain.  I suppose it starts with fear of God.  I historically hated this idea.  How could I fear my best friend?  Back in the 1990s, I did some research, and found that some equated fear of God as fear of disappointing a loved one.  I was typically devastated when I disappointed my parents, so this was a fear of God I could accept.  

Twenty years later, I’m rethinking this.  Actually, I still have no problem with that concept, but there is more to it.  As humans we are afraid of people who are more powerful than us.  We are afraid of things that can hurt us, or cut our time on Earth short.  Yet, God who is all-powerful, who could snuff us out in a second, is not one to be feared.  As I ponder this, I realize it makes no sense.  In truth, while God is not vindictive or mean, my survival instinct should kick in and generate a natural fear response to one as great as God.  

I am not advocating that one develop an irrational fear of God.  My point is that the goal in life is transcendence. Thus, by bringing God down to our level, we have taken away our goal.  As a result, our lives are mundane, and most of us take anti-depressants, and wish there was something more in life. There is.  There is a God of great power and might who wants to activate the Holy Spirit within us. He wants this same Spirit to elevate us to his level. He wants to share his very essence with us. In this way only can we be fulfilled humans. 

Spend some time today at the base of Mt. Sinai.  Meditate on the experience of the ancient Israelites who witnessed God’s great might.  Hear the thunder. See the lightening. Feel the Earth quake.  Experience the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.  Do not let the end result of your reaction be the same as theirs, where they asked Moses to mediate for them. Just spend some time recognizing his greatness. Once you have pondered the great divide between his awesomeness and power, climb the mountain with Moses.  Climb the mountain with a little fear and trembling within. In this way maybe our life journey can be a process of climbing the mountain, of transcending and becoming more like him. When we reach the top, then we, like Moses and the elders who went with him, will feast face-to-face with our creator.  

In Him,

dw 

This morning, as I pondered a recent conversation with a friend, I had an image of a child in a playpen. The child was holding up his or her hands to the father.  The father was reaching down to pick up the child. What did this image say to me? 

First, I should start with a little background on the conversation with my friend. We were comparing definitions of spirituality.  For me, spirituality is about living out faith in a way that builds a relationship with God.  Part of living the faith is practicing acts of virtue.  

Does one practice virtue to make oneself holy?  No. God is the one who perfects the person, not the person. At the same time, God will not overrun our will.  Therefore, there are things that the person must do to surrender to God’s will; to cooperate in the process by being open to change.  What is this that we do? We practice virtue.  In the practice of virtue, we are doing our imperfect best to avoid occasions of sin.  Through the virtues, we put others first, and thus die to self.  The practice of virtue and a deep prayer life are our main contributions to the process of becoming holy. 

So, why a child in a playpen? I see the event of reaching up hands to the father as equating to the practice of virtue and prayer. In so doing, we grant God permission to enter into the process. As a result of this, God reaches down, and lifts us up to the heights of holiness.  We become one with the Father as Jesus was one with him.  I like the way Fr. Jordan Aumman, O.P. said it, it is about becoming through grace what Jesus was by nature. Christian Spirituality in the Catholic Tradition p 12.

This raises the question – what is holiness? Holiness is God.  Thus, in becoming holy, we become less, and God becomes more.  We are more and more joined to the divine life as we practice virtue as a way of raising our hands to the father, and allowing him to perform his trascendent process within us. 

Spend some time today picturing yourself lifting your hands to God.  Imagine him working in you a deep conversion.  Imagine surrendering to his power and might, and allowing him to bring you to a more fulfilling life.  Think of ways in which you can practice virtue. For those of you who have not studied virtue, I’ll say there are a few different types. In short, the virtues I am talking about are acts of dying to self and of being service to others.  Don’t forget to invite the Holy Spirit into your imagination, and ask him to show you how to provide him with more room within you in which to work his miracles of change. 

In Him,

dw 

What is spirituality? It is a relationship with our triune God.  It includes living a moral life that is supercharged by the Holy Spirit.  In other words, what we cannot do because of our sinful nature, we can do when we call the Holy Spirit into our efforts, and truly open ourselves to grace.  Sometimes, opening ourselves to grace takes a lot of practice. This practice happens in each aspect of our lives as we learn to surrender. It isn’t a one size fits all or one time event.  We might not see results immediately.  Provided we don’t give up, God will continue to heal our brokenness, and we will constantly see improvement. Even when we take backwards steps, he is still there, merciful and mighty.  We just have to surrender again.  

What does spirituality look like? This is my current thesis.  It is about inviting the Holy Spirit into our days. It is about surrendering to him, and learning to follow his lead.  Thus, when I am having difficulty getting through to someone with whom I am communication, I internally pray, “Holy Spirit, show me the right words.”  When I find myself committing the same sin over and over again, “Holy Spirit, help me to tie into your grace so that I can avoid this sin.”  (This one is especially critical as you see yourself about to sin).  

More importantly than the personal benefits of life in the Spirit is the communal aspects.  The early Christians truly supported each other, even financially.  I believe this is because the Holy Spirit prompted their generosity.  The givers trusted the Holy Spirit to be there for them if they ran into financial difficulties. They did not rely on their own personal savings. I am amazed when I hear stories about people receiving money from someone who said, “I feel like the Holy Spirit is asking me to send this to you.” 

Just think what our world would look like if we all were a little more open to taking a chance on the Holy Spirit. Even when we get it wrong, the Spirit uses it for God’s glory. 

Spend a few minutes today praying for wisdom on how the Holy Spirit works in your life. Consider where you can grow in your understanding of the Spirit both in your personal life and in supporting those around you.  Look for little ways to acknowledge the Spirit in your life, and to empower him to show you wonderful and mighty deeds.

In Him, 

dw 

This morning, I pondered my relationship with God in light of having visited some of my nieces and nephews over the weekend.  I watched the interaction of the parents and the kids, and I chimed in here and there along the way.  I saw the fight for control; for the right to do things the way they wanted to. Most of you know the drill!  

When Jesus said we must be like children, he was talking about the innocence and trust they put in their parents.  He was not talking about them having to learn self-disciple and social niceties.  

I think the imagery of what I saw during this visit was eye opening in regards to the faith walk.  God is our father.  He wants us to trust him. He wants us to submit to his will. He wants us to follow the law.  What do we do? We struggle for control. We struggle to get our way.  We use all of the same antics young children use.  

Spend some time with the Holy Spirit today.  Reflect on your relationship with the Father. He wants you to submit to his will. He wants you to trust him with your whole heart.  Where are you fighting him for control and dominion in your own life?  Pray to the Holy Spirit to guide you through the life-long process of trusting him with your life; of surrendering to him.  

In Him,

dw

This week, I was reading a book on the Prophets by Walter Brueggemann.  He suggests that the purpose of Jeremiah, 2 Isaiah, and Ezekiel was to help the Jews into exile, through exile, and back from exile.  He said that God needed to destroy the existing world order and the false ideas of covenant that had developed over the years, and to bring the people back with a better understanding of their relationship with God.  Thus, by tearing everything down, he could restore the proper vision of covenant living. 

Brueggemann’s thesis was based on world order.  I want to take his theory down to the personal level.  We all have ideas about how the world works, who God is, and how he works in our life. God is so outside of our understanding that there must be falsity in our understanding.  In truth, God calls us to total dependence on him. He calls us to relinquish all that we hold dear in the world, including our false perceptions of him, so that he can replace what we give up with something greater. 

Spend some time with the Holy Spirit today pondering what God is calling you to relinquish.  Talk to him about any fears or concerns you have with letting go.  Talk to him about your desire to maintain control over your life, and ask him to help you trust him more.  You can start with the little things. For instance, if someone cuts you off in traffic, accept that God allowed that to happen.  Praise him for the opportunity to choose peace over anger.  As you practice giving up things over which you have no control, you will find it easier to give up the things that you do try to control. 

In Him,

dw

I have spent some time of late pondering God’s healing.  Is it on his time or mine?  I am not positive, but I have become more convinced that I stand in the way of my own healing.  I find myself fighting grace, and holding on to destructive patterns of behavior.  

For instance, in my retired from law status, I find myself watching too much TV. I know that I could fill my time with more prayer or reading or in pursuit of new hobbies.  I could fill my time with better caring for my house and my yard.  Is it bad to watch too much TV?  Well, I’ll avoid the answer and go with – I keep praying for God to give me better habits, and I keep falling back into the old. God or me? In this instance – me.  I feel the grace to do something more; to do better than I am doing with the habits I want to break.  I am the one who avoids and goes back to the easy way.  I go back to the easy way even though I long for more fulfilling hobbies and habits.  

This morning, I found myself praying for the Holy Spirit to enter into these places, and to help me let go. I prayed for him to heal these places, and to help me avoid getting in his way.  I figure I will be praying for this continually until I fully let go and let God.  I imagine I will likely take it back, and have to start over until I learn to fully step into his light.  

Thus, I find myself believing that God heals on my time. He will not override my free will, even when in my conscious mind I have surrendered to his will. He will work in my subconscious until I release each and every piece of the brokenness to him. 

Spend sometime today with the Holy Spirit. Ask him where you are in need of releasing your full consciousness to his healing power. Ask him where you are holding onto comforts of the known over the unknown. Invite him into all of these places, and ask him to heal you.  Repeat the process through time, for in time, you will find your prayers answered.  

In Him,

dw 

 Life is about learning who God is, and who we are in light of this God.  It is in pursuing this path of knowledge that we are transformed into whom God longs for us to be – united with him; holy.   

The message of Christ calls us to live life a certain way, and to hold on to truth no matter what.  To hold on even when our loved ones pass from this earth or make bad decisions.  It is about trust.  It is in knowing that it is in the hereinafter that we will find the peace and love that God longs to give us.  

It isn’t so much that such a life of peace and love is not available here as it is that sin and our confusion over its effects blind us to peace and love in this life. The Kingdom of God is here.  It is fully present, but we are unable to remain in it.  We are unable to remain in it because while we long to be holy, we also long to be of the world. We are at war within ourselves. Our own interior being is not at peace and fails to love.  

What is the meaning of life – it is about learning to live in peace and love with the God who created us. It is about being joined to the one who created us and loves us.  It is about transcendence which means letting go of things of this world in exchange for that which our hearts long.  

Spend some time in prayer today pondering where peace and love might reside within you despite all of the contradictions. Spend time asking the Holy Spirit to heal your longings for worldly things. Spend some time asking him to realign your path on earth so that it is more in line with where he longs for you to tread. He will give you your hearts delight if you let him. 

In Him,

dw