I don’t know about you, but I find that I spend more of my days being angry or confused because God went left when I went right. Whose fault is this? It isn’t God’s.
Here is what I know. Being a Christian means walking in faith with the Holy Spirit. It is the Spirit guiding our steps. When we get out of step, it is our fault. We get ahead of him. We step on the toes of the one with whom we are dancing.
Our God is an all-knowing God. He knows what is best for us, even when we, in our simple-mindedness, think we know best. We try to avoid suffering and discomfort, but ours is a religion of carrying a cross. Ours is a religion of believing the best, the perfect, is yet to come. It cannot come until we submit to his will. It cannot come until we realize that we are not the boss of ourselves. We have given our lives over to Him who made us and wants what is best for us.
What is best for us? Reliance on a God who loves us. Total reliance on a God who loves us. This means accepting the good with the bad. It means blessing God in the best of times and in the worst of times. It means faithfully following the one who is guiding us, even if our attempts involve stepping on his toes throughout the dance. He is strong, and he can take it. He prefers that to us trying to lead throughout the dance.
Spend some time today pondering where you are trying to lead, and asking the Holy Spirit for the grace to surrender. Ask him to show you where your expectations differ from his, and start on the path of peaceful surrender. This goes against our nature, and it may take some time. He will be with you. He is patient. He will get you through.