Have you ever stopped to think about how much God loves you? How much he longs for you to be deeper and deeper in love with him? I propose that it is only in going ever deeper in this love relationship that we can find true meaning and happiness in this life.
At the same time, there are many things that keep us from more fully entering into this relationship. We may have trust issues from our human relationships that impact our understanding of our relationship with God. At our core, I believe we fear that we are unlovable because we know we are sinners; we are imperfect. In our culture, this truth impacts the ability for others to love us. However, God’s love is unconditional. He knows our sinful nature even better than we do, and I think that frightens us. It frightens us because we have all been judged, and have felt the rejection of such judgments.
Therefore, basking in God’s love is not as easy as it sounds. We have our fears of being vulnerable and of being judged. So, we run from experiencing his love. If you do not believe me, try meditating on his love for you. See if you can bask in his love for 20 minutes a day. Watch how you find yourself wanting to be busy or to otherwise avoid the process.
Spending time basking in God’s love is like a bride standing before her bridegroom on her wedding night. She stands before him, naked, vulnerable, wondering what he sees, and worries that what he sees is not good enough. She fidgets before him or even resists standing still in the light before him. When she finally stops avoiding, and stands before him, he takes her to himself, and loves all of her fears away.
Spend some time in silence today, and picture yourself before your bridegroom. Stand for as long as you can, and then push yourself to stand even longer. If you feel fidgety, reminder yourself that he loves you. He already knows your defects and failures. He loves you anyway. Be aware of the joy of that love, even if it, like hope in Pandora’s box, is at the bottom of your awareness. Let this joy float to the top; let it offset your fears. Try and spend even more time tomorrow basking in the love of a God who longs to fulfill your every want and need through the healing power of his love.
August 20, 2019